New Path.

I’ve been walking this path for a while now.

However today this path seems brand new. A slight feeling of different, like a shy girl telling her secrets for the first time. I have been yearning for newness. My Pisces nature makes it difficult for me to embrace routine. I really don’t like routine. Just the thought of it makes me bored. I am afraid I have a small attention span, and that I want to move on to the next thing prematurely.

This is my new path.

Previously before moving to Los Angeles, I had a glorious path. It was a quick walk from my apartment and hugged the coast line. It challenged me. “Don’t stop running until you get to the top!” The path opened up to me, gave me peace and clarity. Then when I thought I almost wasn’t going to make it, I would give it one last push and breathless make it to the top where the grand ocean would make me forget about my worries.

This was my old path.

I miss the sense of vastness! Greatness! Mother Earth really showing off. Here in Los Angeles, you don’t get that feeling very easily. The city is surrounded by more city. You can venture to the coast, but for me it doesn’t quite feel the same because it has a man made feel to it. The natural beauty has diminished.

I must learn to embrace my new path. The universe has placed me here to learn something, gain experience, find a new adventure. It’s hard to embrace something new, when you miss the old and familiar. The best thing to do is to look at the new path with new eyes. I can’t look at this new path with old eyes for I will miss the old. I must look at this new path with new eyes to be curious and explore – I will find a new adventure.

Nostalgic.

It’s going on six months now living in Los Angeles.

Los Angeles – the place I never dreamed of living. I believed it was just too big and full of materialistic lies. Well it is too big, full of traffic and materialistic lies! But, don’t get me wrong, I am really starting to like living in Los Angeles…it also happens to be the land of opportunity and filled with people and places that surprise:

The uniqueness of each neighborhood, delicious restaurants in every type of cuisine imaginable, a challenging hike to breathtaking views of the city, movement and excitement, Koreatown and Korean spas, an abundance of wellness conscience people and businesses, seeing or meeting someone famous is practically a common occurrence, billboards on every street, the feeling that something amazing is happening right now…

Like most of us, I have my nostalgic moments too. I miss the small town feel and simpler ways of life from my hometown:

Endless days at the beach, no traffic, being able to walk or ride my bike to work, free parking, living close to my family and friends, bigger apartment, bbqs on the back patio, the city was only a short drive away, the Wharf’s clam chowder, the feeling of fall and scarves, chai latte at my favorite café…

Change is inevitable, but those who embrace it succeed. That is what I am doing here in Los Angeles. Who knows how long I will stay, or where I’ll end up next. I’m just going with the flow, and thankful for every moment I am here.

My mom loves to remind me every time I talk to her,

“Just be happy, life is too short.”

Ladies Only.

I believe it essential to find balance.

Being a 20-something female in this ever-changing and tempting world…

I must find balance for my own sanity, for my family and friend’s sanity, and to really shine at work and in life!

Ladies, if you find yourself feeling a bit off, not motivated, not your usual self, having emotional swings, or whatever… it could very well be that what you are consuming, even a simple lifestyle routine that could be affecting your brain and hormones in your body. Hormones are not something to be conscience about just when you are an older woman going through menopause!

Most of us are trained to focus on our heart health by doing cardio, or watch your liver and digestion! But, if you truly want to watch your health, it really starts with your brain. Who knew that thing up there was really the culprit? If you really think about it, we can’t function or do anything without our brain. It is the one sending us signals throughout our entire body! To be our BEST selves, we need to be aware of what our daily actions are doing to the most important organ in our body.

If you are tired of feeling negative, and want to reset, take a moment to pick up this book!  Read through the chapters that are relevant to you. You won’t regret it. It is so insightful!

Unleash the Power of the Female Brain

Take a moment.

Have you ever felt like life is overwhelming?

Like you can’t breathe, and all thoughts are racing in your mind, indecision and negative thoughts clouding any potential chance of sunshine?

I have been feeling like that lately. So much has changed in my life in such a short amount of time, it was hard for me to take a moment to myself. I still feel that I am struggling to truly unwind. Looking back over this crazy, intense last year… I was laid off, went through a break up, constantly on a job hunt, helped my Dad move across the country, found an awesome job, purchased a new car, moved to a BIG city, got stupid BIG city parking tickets, missed my mom during her injury, fell in love all over again, just got a new boss…

::sigh::

I see a faint light at the end of the tunnel. I have faith that my moment will come, it’s just not now. There is no break for me. I must continue to hike through this, and don’t stop until I get to the top… oh wait… now I have to climb back down. I feel so out of tune with myself, my soul, my life. I just feel like I am on auto-pilot.

Life is an ongoing non-stop collection of moments. I just want a moment to myself.

That is how I found myself here again. I missed it. This moment to just be. Curling up with my Cozy Pages. This place used to be such a comfort to me. I remember starting this blog in college! The random thoughts I had back then. It makes me laugh when I re-read my posts.

I haven’t changed that much I don’t think. I am still that random girl with a childish dream-  just now in a different place and time… maybe with a different dream now. I am still trying to figure that part out. Well I am here now to take a moment, and never forget who that girl is no matter how overwhelming life gets.