Daily Affirmation.

I live by my vision, not my circumstance.

Inkling to Travel.

My soul is a traveling one. It constantly wants to reach beyond the horizon, and experience all life has to offer.

Shockingly looking back through my 2011 calendar, I have only traveled once this year. So far during my 25 years on this earth, I have been fortunate to travel more than many will in their lifetime. Some wish for it, some don’t even imagine. My soul yearns for it. It will not rest until the next adventure is underway.

How do I ease my ever wandering soul?

I think about leaving it all behind sometimes. Join the Peace Corps. Teach English Abroad. Help Non-Profits Internationally. Ooo! International Spy! Anything to live a traveling life of adventure.

You ever feel like you were here for something bigger than your present situation? Perhaps a calling so to speak? How do you know what you are truly supposed to do? It seems either way you choose is a risk.

My soul keeps close. It keeps watch of the path I am creating for myself. It questions me all the time. I suppose it’s a wonderful thing. I feel as though the years will slip by right before my eyes if I’m not careful and disregard what my soul has been hinting to.

Oh what to do. Have any of you satisfied your traveling souls?

You define it.

Don’t ask what the meaning of life is, because you define it.

This saying really resonated with me.

You ever feel like you’re in a runt? Stuck? Lost? Blah blah blah the list can go on. I felt like that recently until I realized I let my life go out of balance. It’s so weird because I didn’t even realize it until it hit me hard.  I let the not so fun things in life take over the fun things in my life. I felt non-motivated, and at times negative.

I realized I wasn’t living my every day the way I wanted. I recall making it my mission to do something different every single day bringing excitement and adventure. Even the small things counted. I remember taking the time to do the things that made me happy. Time to re-balance my life again.

I believe the following to be true:

[Our mind is magnetically attracted to the negative. It drags up difficult memories and chews on them, over and over. It keeps trying to change the outcome. “If only I had said that, then he would have… ” The past is gone. We cannot change its outcome, except by changing ourselves, and that can only be done in the present. The mind thinks up dreadful things that might occur in the future. “What if the economy collapses and there isn’t enough food and people come to our door with guns…” The mind thinks that it is doing its job, protecting us from danger, but it is actually making us more fearful and tense.

To transform the unhappy mind, turn it toward finding even one thing it can be grateful for.]

Excerpt from http://www.tricycle.com/blog/deeper-lessons-gratitude-end-day

So that’s my new mission…

Today, I am grateful for my place on this earth.

Thinking to Rain.

My apartment is old. Once you turn on the heater, all is warm and cozy… but soon enough the chill is crawling right up my back. Bad insulation. Old apartment. I love throwing my pj’s on the floor on top of the floor vent to warm them up before I slip in them, then I slip under the bed covers real fast hoping to extend the longevity of the warmth. Do you ever remember your mom doing the laundry, and as soon as the dryer was done she would throw the biggest blanket on top of you… soo soft, soo warm! I miss that.

Sitting here in solitude. Listening to the sound of the rain. Relaxed.  It brings me back to here, to right now. You can’t listen to the rain without being in the moment. It’s a beautiful moment for me.