Take a moment.

Have you ever felt like life is overwhelming?

Like you can’t breathe, and all thoughts are racing in your mind, indecision and negative thoughts clouding any potential chance of sunshine?

I have been feeling like that lately. So much has changed in my life in such a short amount of time, it was hard for me to take a moment to myself. I still feel that I am struggling to truly unwind. Looking back over this crazy, intense last year… I was laid off, went through a break up, constantly on a job hunt, helped my Dad move across the country, found an awesome job, purchased a new car, moved to a BIG city, got stupid BIG city parking tickets, missed my mom during her injury, fell in love all over again, just got a new boss…

::sigh::

I see a faint light at the end of the tunnel. I have faith that my moment will come, it’s just not now. There is no break for me. I must continue to hike through this, and don’t stop until I get to the top… oh wait… now I have to climb back down. I feel so out of tune with myself, my soul, my life. I just feel like I am on auto-pilot.

Life is an ongoing non-stop collection of moments. I just want a moment to myself.

That is how I found myself here again. I missed it. This moment to just be. Curling up with my Cozy Pages. This place used to be such a comfort to me. I remember starting this blog in college! The random thoughts I had back then. It makes me laugh when I re-read my posts.

I haven’t changed that much I don’t think. I am still that random girl with a childish dream-  just now in a different place and time… maybe with a different dream now. I am still trying to figure that part out. Well I am here now to take a moment, and never forget who that girl is no matter how overwhelming life gets.

Thinking to Rain.

My apartment is old. Once you turn on the heater, all is warm and cozy… but soon enough the chill is crawling right up my back. Bad insulation. Old apartment. I love throwing my pj’s on the floor on top of the floor vent to warm them up before I slip in them, then I slip under the bed covers real fast hoping to extend the longevity of the warmth. Do you ever remember your mom doing the laundry, and as soon as the dryer was done she would throw the biggest blanket on top of you… soo soft, soo warm! I miss that.

Sitting here in solitude. Listening to the sound of the rain. Relaxed.  It brings me back to here, to right now. You can’t listen to the rain without being in the moment. It’s a beautiful moment for me.