Not good.

Listen…”Ok, It’s Alright with Me” by Eric Hutchinson and “Hot N’ Cold” by Katy Perry. Those two songs explain my life right now.

Ok, it’s alright with me. Some things are just meant to be. It never comes easily, and when it does I’m already gone. I’m practically never still. More likely to move until, I end up alone at will. My life continues inching along.

I change my mind, like a girl changes clothes. Yeah I, PMS, like a bitch – I would know. And I always think, always speak critically. I should know, that I’m no good for me. Cause I’m hot then I’m cold. I’m yes then I’m no. I’m in and I’m out. I’m up and I’m down. I’m wrong when it’s right. It’s black and it’s white. We fight, we break up. We kiss, we make up. I don’t really want to stay, but I don’t really want to go.

I don’t feel very motivated. My ambition is shot. I hate looking for jobs- because there are none available! This “transition” into adult life is really screwing with me. Why does the economy have to be in shit when it’s time for me to graduate? I don’t like it one bit. I just want these last five weeks of college to be OVER! I don’t want to be rich, I just want to be happy. I don’t care what kind of job I get, not like I have much of a choice right now anyways. I just want to find my niche -where I belong. I feel like I can do many things, but master none. The huge pile of student loans aren’t very appealing either. I just want to live in my pink polka dot robe forever.