2.5 Weeks of College Left.

College is offically over for me on Friday, December 19, 2008. I can’t believe this day finally has come. Now I have to become an adult and live my own life to support myself. How exciting. I was thinking the other day it would be awesome to be able to join the Air Force or Navy and be a Public Affairs Officer. From searching online, there are like two jobs in Monterey Bay that are remotely close to my major and so I’m limited on my options. At least if I join the military, I get all my basic needs taken care of. That’s all I’m worried about. Housing, Food and Health. Those are the things these days that are the most expensive. The basic needs should be available and afforable for ALL! I don’t want to live off my mom, because she has already supported me for so long and has paid for a lot of my crazy last minute traveling opportunities. She literally has tried her best to helped me through anything that I have asked of her. Now it’s my turn to take care of myself and treat my mom.

Not good.

Listen…”Ok, It’s Alright with Me” by Eric Hutchinson and “Hot N’ Cold” by Katy Perry. Those two songs explain my life right now.

Ok, it’s alright with me. Some things are just meant to be. It never comes easily, and when it does I’m already gone. I’m practically never still. More likely to move until, I end up alone at will. My life continues inching along.

I change my mind, like a girl changes clothes. Yeah I, PMS, like a bitch – I would know. And I always think, always speak critically. I should know, that I’m no good for me. Cause I’m hot then I’m cold. I’m yes then I’m no. I’m in and I’m out. I’m up and I’m down. I’m wrong when it’s right. It’s black and it’s white. We fight, we break up. We kiss, we make up. I don’t really want to stay, but I don’t really want to go.

I don’t feel very motivated. My ambition is shot. I hate looking for jobs- because there are none available! This “transition” into adult life is really screwing with me. Why does the economy have to be in shit when it’s time for me to graduate? I don’t like it one bit. I just want these last five weeks of college to be OVER! I don’t want to be rich, I just want to be happy. I don’t care what kind of job I get, not like I have much of a choice right now anyways. I just want to find my niche -where I belong. I feel like I can do many things, but master none. The huge pile of student loans aren’t very appealing either. I just want to live in my pink polka dot robe forever.