Bullshit.

I’m annoyed right now.

How is it that I listen to your bullshit day in and day out?

How is it that I let you vent without criticizing you?

It’s because I love you and I know you need someone to listen to you.

But when it’s time for me to vent to talk bullshit- you cut me off. You don’t want to hear it, you say I’m too sensitive.

FOR ONCE WILL YOU JUST SHUT UP AND LISTEN.

Maybe I don’t need to you say anything, maybe I don’t need to you give me advice, maybe I just need you to take it and throw it away for me.

Isn’t that what a relationship is? Granted I don’t bullshit everyday or even every week, I think I’m a pretty positive person…but dammit let me get my bullshit day when I need it.

Don’t wake me up.

The nights are getting colder. I’m getting older.

I’m dreaming so much, but I don’t ever want to stop. Don’t wake me up.

inspired by mcfly…

I’m 23 years old. Many say my life is just getting starter- but for right now, this very moment- I feel like I’m not going anywhere. I wonder where I will be in 5 years or even 10 years. I dream and imagine what I could be doing, where I could be…but also knowing ME…I change my mind every other moment. And another thing is I tend to keep my head in the clouds…I’m always dreaming of what could be. That’s when I tell myself “snap out of it- back to the present!” I really don’t know what I want. I guess I just go by a whim and what sounds like a good idea then. I’m sure we all do it. That’s life’s decisions…we list the pros and cons and go for it- and that’s only if we got the guts!

Sometimes I wish I could live in a dreamland.

Rain. Rain. Rain.

Gooood Morning! I bet you thought this was going to be all depressing because of the title huh?

NOT.

Although it is dark and gloomy outside, I feel Gooood. I just got back from hanging out with Corey for the last two and a half days. Hung out, fixed my car, watched The Book of Elli…very interesting movie. It was raining ash. Denzel was chopping heads off. Overall it was a movie you need to experience yourself. It makes you wonder. It makes you appreciate what you have.

But anyways, it’s raining and has been for the last couple of days. 

I just want to say that I live in heaven. I consider myself to be lucky. Yeah, it might be raining…but the weather here otherwise is amazing. Just last week we were having beautiful sunny days in the 70’s. And it’s WINTER time. There is no extreme here. Plus we need a little rain for the greeen to come! I’m a spring baby- born exactly on the first day of spring. I can’t wait for spring…it shall be good times…good business, good changes…overall it’s something to look forward too!

Big task ahead.

Somehow by the time April rolls around, I will have to convert our garage into a livable space to sleep in. Corey (my boyfriend) will be moving into my Mom’s house, and we will be sleeping in the garage. As horrid as that might sound to you, I’m very excited because I haven’t lived with Corey for the last three years. We lived together the first two, and as you can imagine being separated for three years- after being together for two- was a tremendously hard task. It was a long distance relationship for three years. Through the ups and downs, we have managed to still love each other. Now- we are very excited for the next step!

So back to the garage…the reason why we are going to sleep there is because the only other spare room is my brother’s. He will be graduating high school this summer and heading to Wyo Tech in August and graciously let Corey and I take over his room when he’s off enjoying college life. So the garage is only temporary- but gives us our own “space” for the time being. As of now, the garage is what most people use it for- storage. Piled high with junk, I will have to work my interior designing magic! I’m looking forward to seeing how far my creativeness can bend. 

 Here we go!